I have decided to not too obsessed with somebody. I saw one of Adam Lambert's concert photo hugged his female dancer, Brooke. I felt so jealous and so broken heart :( I know, I shouldn't felt like that, but, I can't control my feeling. From the first time I saw Brooke, I didn't like her, I don't know why, she just so coquettish. May be if Adam Lambert hugged the other woman, just like Allison Iraheta. I wouldn't so jealous about that, because she's not coquettish. If Adam Lambert turn straight, the one who I like to be his girlfriend is Allison Iraheta. I think Allison has a great vibe and voice :) I don't care about their age, they're really cute together. Allison is 18 years-old and Adam is 28 years-old. But, from the deepest of my heart, I don't want it, I want my gay guy Adam Lambert. I hope Adam and Tommy can unite :) I like when he and Tommy kissing or hugging or making an eye contact or smiling or talking, I don't know, they're just great-cute couple. I hope Adam can turn Tommy gay :) or may be, he's already gay, who knows ?! LOL. I want my Adommy :) I adore Adam and Tommy. Adam has a great personality, outstanding voice, gorgeous face and Tommy is a great musician, he can plays keyboard, bass, guitar, beside he is pretty and funny. I love them both :)
This week is the first week in 9th grade. Wow, I grow up faster than I thought. Time goes fast. I don't realize I waste a lot of my time. I hope tomorrow is a new dawn, a new day, and a new life for me. I don't wanna regret my past time in my future. Do my best and forget the rest :) Please God, help me to catch my dream :)
I wrote too much, didn't I ? Sorry, I really missed this page

although i'm not a nightfair-dweller anymore , i can still write anything here , right ?! you know , i love this place , this is my #2 favorite place to play ( after Twitter )

check out Adam Lambert new video "If I Had You" , it's awesome ! i have watched the video 2 times since the video out 1 hour ago . monday June 14 , 2010 he will be perform in Columbus , Ohio , hope it'll be success ... i get many remidial test :( it's bad .

slept at 9.20 then now , 4 am , i just woke up from my sleep at 1.30 am . i opened twitter , then i read SashaMallory ( one of Adam's dancer ) tweet , she wrote that she was doing a live webchat on ustream , so , i opened ustream ... then i asked her "where's adam ?" she didn't answer , i asked ( may be ) 2 times , then i asked "can you tell me where's adam ?" she didn't answer , not too long , somebody wrote "vesa, please don't be so rude" ... then i answer "okay" , actually i was confuse , are my questions rude ? i just asked about adam :( why ? ... then , i wrote "i love you" actually, that was for Adam Lambert , hehehe ... i like when Adam perform with his band and dancers , but i just love Adam Lambert ... i still thinking about somebody that told me " ... dont be rude ... "is he / she really serious ?" , honestly , this is my first time did live chat with somebody out Indonesia

Adam and crew are in PA ( pennsylvania ) , they'll be perform on Friday, June 4 , 2010 at 8:00 pm , in Kirby Center , wanna see they live , but how ?

hey , in the last post , i wrote gorgeos , sorry , i mean gorgeous :)

i saw Adam Lambert on the cover of June Frontier Magazine ( gay , lesbian , bisexual , and transgender magazine ) in LA , he looks so gorgeos ... then i read his interview , he was funny smart gay , make me more love him . Hey , THE GLAMNATION TOUR is started ! my favorite glamily team are going to perform in Wilkes-Barre, PA, The F.M. Kirby Center for the Performing Arts , June 4 , 2010 at 8 p.m ...

listening to my sister reading Al-Quran at 01.00 am , i really proud of her , she works hard to get a great score in Practice Final Examination ...

3 DAYS NO SCHOOL ! what a beautiful days :) wanna hang out with my friends , go to fitness center , watched movie , join acting class , join english club , but how ?! guys , wanna come with me ? . i think , sit in front of computer all the day , surf the internet a whole day , watch TV every day , is not good for me , i need some exciting-fun out door activities ...

listening to Adam Lambert's songs for many many times , it doesn't makes me bored , it makes me happy all the time , he gives me voodoo ( voodoo : one of Adam Lambert's incredible song ) . He always busy , now , he does some rehearsal for THE GLAM NATION TOUR . Adam , Adam's band , and Adam's dancers are so incredible-amazing team . Go Team !!!

i bought a ( not ) original oxford dictionary and a ( not ) original oxford grammar too , i'm so happy about that ( not about the " not original " things ) . i bought it in wilis , i rode my "pink" motor cycle to wilis after school , i was so exited about that , you know , dictionary is one of my must have list ...

listening to Adam's songs with a glass of coffe in my hand , what a relaxing night :) Lets talk about Adam Lambert , i saw pictures of Adam Lambert , and watched some of his videos , it makes me more love him , i think he always looks gorgeous :) and now , i'm waiting for his tweets ... THE GLAM NATION TOUR is come in June 4th 2010 , i'm so exited about that , that would be great . Alison and Orianthi would come in THE GLAM NATION TOUR too , with Adam , can't wait ! When does the exact time If I Had You music video would come ?

I haven't do all my duties , oh my gosh ! plus , i haven't study for the test ( actually , i'm not studied for Monday test too . hahaha ) i'll do it later ( may be ) ...

you wouldn't believe , i met a snake !!! a white-black snake , it was fun !!! actually , i'm afraid , but i can control it ... i try to love snake . hahaha

woke up late and didn't go to school ( actually not too late but i was lazy to go to school ) i missed economic test and physic bimbel , and that's a bit good for me because i haven't studied economic in the last night . i spent my time to surfing the internet , listening to the music , singing loudly ( until now ) it's really cool ! i should go to school tomorrow ( May 22 , 2010 ) because tomorrow is saturday !!! oh come on , it'll be great , wearing batik , there is english lesson , and i have indonesian test .

i want iPod ! i want iPod to accompany me when i take my steps , when i'm alone , i want iPod to remind me about my dream , remind me when i almost give up , i want iPod to be my friend , i want iPod to cheer me up when i sad , glad when i happy , calm me down when i angry , frustrated , and confuse ... you know , music fill the world , color the world , complete the world , and music is what i need , seriously ! if my daddy not allow me to have an iPod , mp3 player or mp4 player will be nice too .

when i was surfing the internet , i found some quotes that inspire me ... yeah , i need some quotes right now , and i hope i can keep they ( the quotes ) on my mind , and practice it in my real life , amin .

i haven't study , may be i can study this night , but not now . hahaha .

Listening to Alicia Keys " Empire State of Mind " and i remember one of my dream " go to New York " she screams NEW YORK ... NEW YORK ... NEW YORK ... and damn ! why i can't download x tina's ( the other name of Christina Aguilera ) WooHoo , adam lambert and his friend said , that song is really good , make you wanna dance all the time ... oh come on 4shared ! ... and now , Beyonce " Why don't you love me "

I have an economic test tomorrow , but i haven't study , actually , i want to study , but ... i'm lazy :)

friday night Adam Lambert performed in Wango Tango , an annual event in LA ( i think ) ... he's really funny , glamour , gorgeous , and sexy in the same time , you know , he wore hamer pants ( or what ever , i don't know what's that name ) but , i want that pants ! really cool ! ...

i want to join acting class , don't know why , i have interest in acting , i can't do acting well , but , i wanna learn more ... i hope all my dream really come trur ( amin , amin ya robbal alamin ) and i hope you so !

huff , it'll be an exhausted week , bimbel everyday , this is kinda preparation for direktorat test ... and my lazy time is longer than i expected , oh my god ! i'm lazy for study , lazy for go to school ... may be some quotes from adam lambert or famous people can help me , please , god help me ! i wanna make my parents proud of me , and i wanna make you proud of me ...

today , at school , it was really embarassing ... chiara ( the girl from italy , she has a beautiful hair and good shoes ) came to our class for the second time , we talked about culture and heritage , she told us a lot of her culture , but how about us ? we don't know anything ... asked left and right , and said " i don't know about that . " ... yeah , me too ... so , i wanna change to be better , but , there are so much problem , one of those problem is LAZY ... please lazy , go away from my life !!! please !!! i'm so sick of you !!! actually , who are you ? annoying thing ?

i haven't do my sport homework to watched soccer on TV , and now , it'll be twice harder ...

How Gorgeous Adam Lambert ... if i have him , may be i'll be the happiest people in the world, you'll be jealous ( hahaha ) ... Adam Lambert , what are you doing ? why you don't tweets any thing on twitter ? i'm waiting for your tweets , your story , your new videos , new photos . i'm so exited about that ! can't wait ! ...

i watched Avatar , Funny People , Imagine That , and Legally Blondes ... Legally Blondes is the worst ( i think ) i wanna choke the girls in the film :) ... The others three are very good , well , in the Funny People film , you'll hear many F*CK and SH*T words ...

for your information : i wrote this journal at 3:35 AM ( 03.35 ) , i can't sleep , may be you got bored about my "can't sleep" story , but , i just wanna share this thing to all of you ...

excuse me , i wanna scream : " ADAM LAMBERT !!! " oh my god ! he is so incredible , you know , more i look at him , more i love him ... so what if he is a gay , and , " I'M NOT FULLY LESBIAN FOR NOW ! " ( hahaha ) i love someone, and someone that i love is a boy, his name is ADAM MITCHEL LAMBERT ... being a gay or lesbian is not a big deal ( i think ) is it ?

today is wednesday , a language lessons day , from Javanese , English , then Indonesian ... by the way : I HAVE NOT DO MY HOMEWORK , i spent my time to surfed the internet , go through around the world ( from the internet , of course ) ... okay , 10 minutes again i'll do my homework , don't worry !

yesterday at school , my class had a cook practice , and it was really fun ... we made fried rice , my group made a ... honestly , for me ... not-so-delicious fried rice , well , our fried rice got a bit spicy , you know i'm a spicy moody , i just eat something spicy when i'm in good mood ... but , generally , my group's fried rice is the most delicious ( hahaha )

and , i wanna tell you something embarrassing when i was playing football ... you know i'm not relly like football ( is it kind of food ? snack ? or beverage ? i don't know ) but , in that game , i did some mistakes , make peoples around me laughed at that time , how i'm now embarrassing about that ? you know , handball ? ( is that right ? ) i did that "handball" mistakes for two times ... may be i'd better be a keeper , you know , i can't control my hand to not hold the ball ...

exciting for watching movie today at English Class ! Russel i'm coming ! go English !
hahaha

that's all ... i wanna do my work ...

I watched Adam Lambert on Youtube ( just like usually , he is gorgeous humble awesome ) . He's in Helsinki-Finland now , i wanna go there right now , to see him closer ... you know , more i see him more i love him , may be he gives me voodoo ...

Saturday Night in Amrul's House with my friends ( zahrina , amrul , ryan , and adam ) not really cool , but i like it ! well , at least i can spent my time did some activities ... i went home at 10 pm , after that , i opened my laptop , then , i start to surfed the internet ... and i can't stop , until now

< I'm an Internet Explorer and I use Internet Explorer to surf the internet >

my laptop restarted by it self when i was learning english with my native teacher's , Adam Lambert ( hahaha ) i watched him on MySpace , Adam Lambert Live Video Webchat - Watch Again ... and suddenly , my laptop turned off , i said " what's wrong with you baby ? " well , this laptop just like girlfriend ... i mean , boyfriend for me ...

and now, i'm watching that's video webchat again ... i'm happy to hear his voice ... i love him ( how many times i told ya ? ) ... may be , i can't see the whole video , because , it may be take a lot of time ... ' buffering , buffering , buffering ' ...

Adam Lambert Live Webchat now in Ustream , MySpace ( started at 5 pm : UK , and 11 pm : Indonesia ) unfortunately i can't see him live from the web , well , that's UK live broadcast ... i wanna see him now :(

Adam Lambert in London ! wow , it's nice to be a singer ... you can go through around the world ( especially , when you promote your album , just like Adam Lambert , Justin Bieber , Lady Gaga now )

" ... It's late at night and i can't sleep ... " Time for miracle - Adam Lambert - Ost.2012 ( hahaha ) @you : Adam Lambert makes me NUT !

adam lambert changed his twitter layout , that's his picture in GLAAD , and i think " how gorgeous he is " ... happy to saw his tweets again ! ... love him so much

i can't breath 'WHEN I LOOK AT YOU ( adam lambert ) ' because you're ( almost ) perfect in me ... hahaha ...

joe jonas and demi lovato, miley cyrus and liam hemsworth, selena gomez and nick jonas, taylor swift and cory monteith, they go so perfectly ...

adam lambert too old for me ... may be he can be a nice brother ( hahaha ) ... how about justin bieber ?

i think, kelly clarkson is not as good as adam lambert ... nothing special on her ... well, i'm not a big fan of kelly clarkson ...

' STUDY LAZY TIME ' lately ... why it could be happen ? ... the answer is : i just lost my spirit, because i don't know ' WHAT I GO TO SCHOOL FOR ' and i don't know what i wanna be ... god, help me to find who really i'm ...

guys i changed my name into SLEEPWALKER ... well , this is one of ADAM LAMBERT's song ... don't know why adam lambert runs around my mind every second ... he makes me crazy all the time ... he's gorgeous , handsome , cute , well - spoken , great singer , good actor , warm , hot , gracious , fantastic , amazing , open - mindedness , unique , talented , etc ... he's gay and jewish ... but, i love adam lambert for who he is , he's inspire me ( not to be a lesbian , guys ! hahaha )

feeling so sad because Adam Lambert doesn't update his status on twitter nor on his blog ... well, may be he just busy, now he is doing a europe tour ... i miss him and his tweet :(

i'm waiting for AMERICAN IDOL and GLEE : PILOT

wow , feeling quiet without adam lambert there ! oh god i wish, he's okay ... 2 days without his tweets just like an empty world ( wahaha !!! ) just kidding , but that's true, i miss him so much ... where is he ? what is he doing ? how is he ? ...

who i wanna be ? what is my aspiration ? until now , i don't know ... hope i can find who i wanna be ...

Well , hello , long time i didn't write any sentences here , and know ... i just wanna say " HELLO !!! " i'm really confuse, what i should write right now ? ehm ... i'll tell you about my bad day in the hospital ... i spent 4 ( or 5 or 6 ) in the hospital because of that mosquito , i was really tortured ! they gave me an infusion , injected me everyday ( and it was really painful ... i cried because of that ) , took my blood everyday ... ( huh ! ) and now, it's over :) thanks god , my parents , my friends , my grandma , my relatives , and mrs.yuli :)

when i'm writing this , i'm listening WHEN I LOOK AT YOU by MILEY CYRUS ... you must hear this song , what a beautiful song ! ( i think ) ... and when i'm listening to this music , i'm transfering ( download ) kris allen song live like we're dying ... and now alicia keys is on TV " ... NEW YORK , NEW YORK ... " she said ...

i wanna download the other song ... hey ! 99 % ... and ... yey !

oh ... how happy i am ... kristen stewart and robert pattinson is a couple ( wow !!! ) and now demi lovato and joe jonas ... i'm happy :) ... hey, i hope they'll be a couple forever, and go to the next step ... MARRY !!! amin amin

at 6.30 pm i went to MOG with my friend zahrina, we want to watch our friend, Hilda on her fashion show competition ... she was so gorgeous ... but, something lost, my mom's handphone, so, after zahrina and i bought ice cream, we went to zahrina's home to found my mom's handphone, we asked to all people there, asked for help to found my mom's handphone, but, it was useless, we can't found the handphone ... so, i went home defenselessly ... after i went home, i want told my mom slowly and carefully, i though my mom will be angry, and in my mind i didn't talk back, it was my fault, and in my true life, my mom really angry, but she talked on a high volume, she said 'kon' ( mean : you ) it was crude, i don't like when he talk like that. she said that i can't keep my things, but, how about my sister's, when my sister's lost her handphone, and didn't say anything to my parents, but, finally my parents knew, my mom not angry, i can't keep my self from my emotion, i talked back, but at the next minutes, i can control my emotion, i tried to keep my self, i went to my room, and writing this story ...

this is my boring story, but, at least, i can share my feel to all of you ... wahaha

wao ... this is an exhausted day ! ... but i got a lot of fun ...

my drama group ( ryan, bima, sandy, nadya, and : of course : me ) make our film, about teenage life ( but, seems like abnormal teenager life ... wahaha ) in this film, we became spies, teenage spies ... after do the long hard film shooting, we were very happy, but suddenly, our smile is gone, some of the film parts were gone ! oh no ! our workhard from morning to evening is useless ! what the hell ...

okay, i'll try to relax , we'll give the file to mrs.yuni in handycam, that's okay ...

my daddy bought new modem ... because our modem was broken ... i'm so happy ! um , i got a bad score in some lesson , because i'm not study hard , and lazy ... is that wrong ? yes, i guess ... Wednesday, my english group will take a video for our film ... and i hope i don't forget to bring my handycam and charge it ! wahaha ...

welcome to the internet vesa ! hahaha

today, zahrina and anganti went to my house ... we watched some movie, disaster movie ( what kind of film is this ? i don't really like it ) , the grudge 3 ( ehm ... not bad, but i don't like, wahaha ) , and after zahrina and anganti went home, i watched the other movies, marley and me ( good story guys, about a friendship between human and a dog, i have the novel too ), and i'll watch cloudy with a chance of meat ball, too bad you guys not here ... and to zahrina and anganti, i'm so sorry because i didn't have much snack ... wahaha ...

happy birthday to my friends ... anganti ( 02-18-2010 ) and amrul ( 02-19-2010 ) hope you both be a nice students , be a nice friend , don't be a miser guys , treating us ! ... LOL

today , 8d got an economic test , not to hard i guess ... everybody did the test as well as they can included me ... i hope we get a nice score ...

surfing the internet ... i opened twitter ... and i found a sentence ... colelSprouse wrote this, i watching ... is he the real cole sprouse ? why he didn't put to be between i and watching ? ...

hope my day will be okay ... because, i feel not concentration lately, what's wrong with me ?

i woke up a bit late
i went to LIA when the class was started 1 hour ago ... how late i am ...
but, you must remember, i'm not a slowcoach !

just now, i writed on my twitter ... hihihi ... who have twitter ?

i watched Akeela and The Bee today, ouh ... what a cute Sean Michael Afable ( Dylan Chui ) ... the girl who played Akeela was Keke Palmer, did you ever watch jump in or True Jackson VP ? that is she !

i got a bad score for mathematic ... and in remidial test i can't do better ... what's wrong with me ? ... hey, its not too late right ? let's make a change !

The good life is inspired by love and guided by knowledge

by. Bertrand Russell
is that right guys ? i think the answer is a YES ...

hey, this day is the end of my ( actually our ) holiday, what a boring holiday ... just like what i said, i didn't go anywhere, just stay home ...

waiting impatiently for our test on Tuesday and Wednesday ( hahaha )

do you think JUSTIN BIEBER is a good singer ?
he is so hypnotizing, adorable , you know ?
owh ... i need a special remedy to cure my fever ... JUSTINFEVER ... lol
i really don't know how to make him go from my head ... that is really annoy me ...

hey, identical twins, cole sprouse and dylan sprouse are cute !!!

if you ask me about my holiday, it was exciting at the first day, and so-so at the next day ... i bought a book and a dress ... owh , i bought THE LOST SYMBOL by DAN BROWN ... it's pretty cool, huh !

last night i slept at 4 am and i just slept aroud 5 hours ... i spent my time to watched VCD and DVD ... i borrowed a lot of VCD and DVD from rental ... i like that !

alhamudulillah ... i got a good ranking ... but, in the smt 2 i must do better ... guys ! we must do better ...

i can't sleep, again ! ... i can't close my eyes until 4 am, hope i can go to school today, i miss my school :)

hey guys ! guess what ... i can't close my eyes until 5 pm , when my mom waked up me at 6 pm , i told to her, i don't go to school today because, my eyes feel so hard to open ... hope i don't miss a great moment at school ... am I ?

finally, i finished to read The Green-eyed Monster, an english teenlit ... not bad ! ... The Green-eyed Monster is the first series of The Shooting Stars ...

i lost one of my novel ... oh no ... it's so bad ... where is my novel go ?

amrul ? why he wrote something on my blog ? ... have he ever use blog before ? ... may be, he did it unintentionally ...

hey, this day, i spent my time to watched DVD and VCD ... i watched angels and demons, the bourne supremacy, and the bourne identity ... good movie, i like it ! ... i like action movie lately ...

on a saturday night, i went to happy puppy with my family, i didn't think that it is a good time to spent my time with my family. why i thought like that ? because in that time, i was in badmood ... can you imagine when i sang with frown in my lips ? but, my sister turned my frown with her jokes ... hahaha ... i remember her jokes ...

amroelzx 04,DAY OF SICK

today i sick because, football when I fell and my leg hurts

I am beautiful no matter what they say, words can't bring me down ... You're beautiful no matter what they say, words cant't bring you down ... We are beautiful no matter what they say, words can't bring us down ...

by : Christina Aguilera
( beautiful lyric )
:) I LIKE THIS ! (:

fact :

Zahrina often forget that plant is living thing ... ZAHRINA THE STRANGE ...

This day, i went to MATOS with my friends ( anganti, zahrina, novita, claudya, santika, and natasha ) ... we went to MATOS by foot ... IS THAT CRAZY ? and the answer is NO, ISN'T ... it so much fun ! ... the security is not permitted us to came in, but we have something inside our head that called BRAIN *LOL* ... we bought many things ... novita made many jokes, we can't stop to laugh ... natasha lost her flower watch head *poor tasha* ...


Guys, let's make a party ! it will be so much fun, right ? ...

hey ... i finished our mascot guys ! ... a horned pagasus ... i will show to you tomorrow , and tell me what do you think ...

this Tuesday, my class did an experiment. Actually biological experiment, dissect a frog ... I DIDN'T LIKE THIS EXPERIMENT ! don't ask why ... i don't like frog !

on the same day, after school, i went to LIA, i got my first day in LIA. i met new friends, and i got new knowledge ... i was very happy ! ... i want to go to New York, this is one of my reason, why i want to learn english more ...